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Friday, April 29, 2005

confusion

so confusing!!! i read the email my parents sent to me wrongly and now i have to disturb the person who is helping us book the air tickets again! argh. i have eyes, but i cant read properly. anyways, i think i'll be leaving after the 4th of May after all. so late! and i thought i'll be gone by this sunday. so it'll be like 1 more week then i'll be gone. time's passing so slowly.
but then again, i can meet up with nis, jermin and lian before i go. hmmm, when you peeps free?? i'll definately be free the first half of next week. Or i think so, i hope the person havent bought my ticket yet. everything is not confirmed! makes me free like a very "not-here-not-there" person.....

spread my wings at[10:34 AM]

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Sunday, April 24, 2005

apologies

OH NO! i kinda forgot bout something! i'm sorry christine! i cant celebrate your birthday with you!!! i'll find something nice for you in cambodia ok?! that's if i get to do a little shopping. so sorry! i'll be at your party next year if you have one. heh.
i just realised that i'll be missing 2 pple's birthdays when i'm gone. well.....robin, if you ever read my blog....i'm sorry too.....
Happy birthday to the 2 pple that will be a year older when i come back from s'pore!

spread my wings at[9:29 PM]

hols

holidays can be fun and boring. mine's more of boring. haha. anyways, i've decided to go to cambodia for a month. i mean, it's no point slacking my arse off in s'pore without much fun cos everyone seems to have be busy with their own thingieesss. it'll be nice to spend mothers' day with my mom too.
so that means i'll be gone next week. so fast huh. i bet my momand dad are getting really excited bout seeing both me and sam again. miss them so much. i kinda held back my tears when i left the cambodia airport last year on my first visit there, leaving my parents. i thought my mom wld cry, but she didnt, she was so strong. i think it was partly cos sam was still with her. but i didnt think i should cry cos she didnt.
i'm torn between ken and my parents, but the obvious choice is my parents right?! i mean i'm just going to be there for a month and i'll definately be back. haha. unless God decides that i've lived long enough and take me away while on the plane or something. haha. i'm gonna miss you....everyone!

my plans for the coming week:
monday - go to pasir ris beach to rollerblade with sam. have dinner with ken.
tuesday - squash training. possibly the whole day.
wednesday - free as a bird. ask me out! haha.
thursday - ditto
friday - chalet
saturday - chalet
sunday - flying off to cambodia!!!! and wont be back in a month's time. but i'll still blog and maybe go on msn once in a while.

spread my wings at[8:50 PM]

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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

itp started.

ken's going to be busy from now until mid june. i might not be getting a part time job after all, it would be too messy to plan everything cos i would have to go to cambodia for 2 weeks during my hols. and that leaves me with only 3 weeks of fun.
i'm going to start learning how to play the guitar. it hurts though. my fingers looked like they are bleeding now. it's already been an hour pff the strings, but my fingers still looks red and feels swollen. the strings cut pretty bad.
had lunch with ken, robin and the girl that works with ken. she's nice. she looks sweet. think i've seen her somewhere in school before. anyways, it felt like i was with working adults cos they were all dressed so adult-ish. haha. after lunch we walked back to their office buildings. robin works at some chinese company that decided to built their building like some chinese temple. haha. so everyday when robin goes to work, pple who dunno that the place is actually an office will think that he's some devoted buddhist going to the temple to pray everyday. haha.
i hope i get a good attachment place next year. and i hope they would give me stuff to do. i hate just sitting around. i would die. that's why i concluded i'm not much of a sales person, i did rather sit in the office and have paper work to do. haha. so boring right. ya, well, ken will prob say "DAC people are boring". and i hate it when people say that COS IT'S NOT TRUE!
i'm trying to upload my pics onto the webshots so i can put it online. but the problem with webshots is that i've got to upload it one by one. so sloooowww...
anyways, i'll be going to stay over somewhere else with sam so i dun think i can use the internet. will be gone till friday. will take pics and upload it. if i can find an easier way of uploading pics then i will put the link up so everyone can view.

toodles

spread my wings at[9:00 PM]

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Sunday, April 17, 2005

after the nightmare

it was just a nightmare. its all over. everything is fine again. it was never the end to begin with.
but still confused? yes.
i guess i'll just take and leave it as it is. anything more will just make it worse.

had dinner at aunty daisy's house. baby joshua was there. he can walk now. still cute and chubby as ever. puting smiles on everyone's faces with his continuous laughter and bubbliness. he's so adorable. he cant stop smiling, not that i want him to. haha.
dinner was great. had some really yummy blueberry tea. it was really sweet and yummy. haha. wonder where they bought it from.

took a cab home with sam and jet. the cab driver was trying to cheat us [or so i think]. he brought us in circles. and took a long route. costs us 10 bucks.

key idea of the day:
scream at the cab driver and refuse to pay if he drove around in cricles pretending to have lost his way.

spread my wings at[10:31 PM]

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Saturday, April 16, 2005

great day!

it feels weird when he calls us "friends". anyways, i had a blast today. went out with bryan, cheryl, ken, robin and zhen. had FISH N CO. comparing my fish and chips to the price i paid, it wasnt really worth it. the fish was all salty and stufff.....
but i guess there's always aprice to pay when u wanna have fun. this is the craziest bunch of people. especially bryan. he did some hip hop dance in the middle of no where. so funny. we wanted encore, but he was too shy. i was the only year 1 among 5 year 2s. it didnt feel weird at all cos i've become like part of them after being with ken and having to hang out with them a couple of times before.
the feeling of going out with girl friends and guy friends are so different. not that i enjoy the company of the former more then latter. hanging out with guys is when you want to have a crazy day of fun and too much laughter till your jaws feel sore. hanging out with girls is when you wanna catch up with each other's lives or do some serious girl shopping. haha.
after eating at fish n co, bryan decided that he needed some coffee from starbucks, and only starbucks. since esplanade dont have starbucks, we stopped by raffles city.
walked towards esplanade and saw this tall memorial sculpture to remember the brave heros of singapore or something. we sat there cos everyone was a little tired and we took crazy pics. well, not we, just the guys. they love the "luixingyu" pose. haha.
anyways, esplanade was cool, went just yesterday with the girls. there was this famous singer performing, but i couldnt really see her face cos we wernt allowed to raise ourselves to peer over the crowd by standing on the wall thingy.
i decided to take a nice walk by myself along the river, only to find myself so out of place, surrounded by couples. ken caught up and we found a nice place to sit and chat. the others came along after a while and we were all complaining about the heat. there was seriously no wind.
cheryl left after a while cos she had to go home and robin accompanied her.
so it was down to bryan, ken, zhen and me. zhen and i made bryan go get some candy floss for us. haha. it's been such a long time since i touched candy floss. ate and took pics. it's so sweet, and i was complaining bout how i did get sick if i finished the whole thing myself.
took a long walk to the merlion, then to bryan's attachment place, some paris bank[ is it?]
it was already 11 plus by then and we all decided that it was time to go home.
home.....

:)

spread my wings at[10:58 PM]

what then?

Went out with ex-mg clique. had fun eating at this korean restaurent that costs a bomb! haha. i might eat there again, when i have a thousand dollars to spare. anyways, we decided that we hadnt had enough to eat, so we were deciding on places to go. 3 choices: very near, near, or far. haha. of cos the very near meant next door and near meant somewhere not as far as having to go all the way to angmokio to eat roti prata, although it sounds yummy [maybe on the next night out].
we headed for esplanade instead, and ended up having an even greater time eating chocolates and taking pics. haha. if i knew how to upload pics i would, but sam's sleeping now. so i'll do it another day.
in conclusion it was a great day....until....

i didnt think it was that difficult. it was even harder. my nose was clogged up and my thorat was sore. when i try to open my mouth to speak, it came out in whispers. things wouldnt be like this if i just think positive. but i need it back. i need it all back. i want things to be ok. things said and done in the past were true feelings. i would never exchange anything in the world for what i've been through. it's not an easy thing. i guess it all doesnt make sense only to you. i need some sleep. my head is seriously pounding with all the stuffed up nose. haha.

the most significant date of the month.....15th....the beginning and the end........

toodle-looooo

spread my wings at[1:27 AM]

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Monday, April 11, 2005

freedom -- 2 days away

3 down, 1 to go. finally finished my accounts paper today. it was pretty easy, but i made some mistakes here and there. i'm just hoping that i can get a B for my accounts overall now that i know an A would be impossible. Only have 1 and 1/3 days to study for my economics paper. i dunno how i'm going to do it, but just pray and do my best.
went for a run with samm just now. it rainned a bit before we ran and the ground was a bit slippery, but we din fall. was a nice run past the Singapore River. I havent got my stamina back yet, after running for a while i decided to stop. had stitches at my sides. anyways, there was this couple of old men sitting on their motorcycles who shouted some weird thingys, like "team power!", at us. then we ran past another 2 indian men who told us to watch out for water on the ground....we just ignored all those weird men who seem like they have not seen the female human speices before.
got back and had a good shower. showering seems more pleasent after a run. much more relaxing. feel like lying on my bed and do nothing, but i dun think i can, if not i wont have enough time to complete my econs revision.

toodles.

spread my wings at[7:38 PM]

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Sunday, April 10, 2005

dang...

i knew i should have gons shopping yesterday! was suppose to only go out to look for nic's bday prezzen. end up going to Wh for a little shopping. and i spent almost one quarter of my allowence! dang.
anyways, got nice this really nice Hillsongs, United CD. love it too. i wldnt have passed the cd to him if it wasnt his birthday. haha. oh well, if i get more money i'll prob go get the cd myself.
i was actually planning to study my accounts the whole of yesterday, but cos i havent seen ken like for ages, i went out to have lunch with him. haha. ended up spending half my day out and didnt get to study much, but i'm glad i managed to revised the 2 sems work. going to start doing those tutorials that are more important....later....haha.
came back bout 1 plus from church just now. went to take a short nap. woke up at 430. printed out 2 past year papers. was going to do them, then i realised that i didnt have the answers and i wld have to go look for June Chua to get it. so i decided to do my tutorials instead.
Got a bit restless and went to the kitchen to look for something to eat. i dun like exam periods not cos of the papers that i have to sit for, it's the food that i eat while studying. lots of fatty stuff like fries, chocloates, milk [milk? yeah. milk]. i found out that i put on a lot of weight while studying for my Os. esp, for my prelims, cos i went to the King Albert Park, McDonalds, almost everyday to study. ah well.
i made a bad bad choice of going shopping yesterday, or even wanting to step into Wh. And noe, i got to scrimp and save in order to have enough money to go out with my girlfriends on friday. cant wait! havent seen them all in eons! sanne is still in auzzie. miss all of them so much. cant wait. Cant Wait! CANT WAIT!!! heh.

adios.

spread my wings at[6:09 PM]

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Wednesday, April 06, 2005

salvation

I know we were suppose to revise statistics today, but all of us, or rather just me, jermin and ailain, didnt have the mood to. I think nis wanted to study, but we dragged her down. bad influence. haha. we went to watch Miss Congeniality 2. it was funny.

Salvation !
Your grace has set me free
Delivered ,saved and sanctified
Redeemed ,forgiven ,justifiedSalvation !
Your grace has rescued me
I've come to put my trust in the Lord
Salvation !
Your blood it covers meRenewed and raised and purified
Baptised ,restored and glorified
Salvation !
Your Word transforming meI've come to put my trust in the Lord
I'm walking step by stepI'm reading line by line
Faith to faith I'm praying all the timeI'm singing praise Your Name
I know I'm not the same
Heaven opens ,
Spirit fallsI'm saved in Jesus' Name

spread my wings at[9:33 PM]

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Tuesday, April 05, 2005

back from fairytale land

sam's back. came back and brought home stuff fpr me and jet. haha. seems like she had lots of fun there. i wanna go there too!!! i wanna study there. it sounds so fun!!
was watching A cinderella story last night, and i just wanna cry. everything when i watch endings with the charcters all lovey dovey, i wonder why my life isnt like that. WHY GOD? WHY?? (quote from Joey from FRIENDS) haha. yupp, the next coolest show.
Anyways, back to reality. got 3 more tests to go. and that SKH is not going to be in school tomorrow. and who on earth is going to help us with our stats now?? why cant he just sit in sch and wait for students like me, so eager to learn, to come and ask questions when we need? baka!
i'm a bit stressed out now. i'm going to flunk stats. or at least get a horrible horrible C- for the module. i hate stats, but i love maths. WHY GOD? WHY??

spread my wings at[3:31 PM]

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