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Thursday, July 28, 2005

fun?

One week break's finally here!
went kayaking with some class girls and jermin yesterday. so fun! only ailian and i kayaked the most. haha. actaully it was mostly lian. she's so brave! the only one who dared to leave the group and kayak until just a few meters away from the big ships. haha. i kinda follwed her. it was fun and stuff. but i'll prob have fainted if i capsized. good thing i didnt. haha. thot i saw jellyfish, but i was just some plastic bag floating ard. the sea is so dirty. the govt should do something to clean up the water. i see like chips bag and different coloured plastic bags inthe water, i even saw a man's pant floating by. haha.
it's a miracle that my arms arnt aching today. i strained it lots yesterday, and it was quite tiring, had to stop and rest a few times. think lian got more muscles than me. haha. she can keep going non stop while i lagg far behind trying to catch up. haha. dun mind going back to kayak again. kinda invited my class guys to, but they dun really seem like the sporty kinda. haha. all study and no play kind.
had dinner at bedok after bathing at melody's condo simming pool. she stays like only 10 mins away from east coast. so near right. if i stay so near i'll prob go cycling and stuff everyday. haha.
dinner was good. felt so hungry and tired after that exercise. ken came and joined us after his paintball game at discovery center. paintball sounds like fun. haha. but very expensive. 25 buckeroos. took the train back with lian and her boyboy. and of cos ken sent me home. haha. he was tired too from all that paintball, but he still took me home even though we were at bedok, which is like 10 mins away from his house. haha. sigh....

today having bbq at melody's house. class outing. haha. we should have more holidays, then the class can bond together. heh.

i'm feeling a bit helpless right now. my brother doesnt like this place. and i know he's at a stage where he's still growing and stuff like that, and without my parent's guidance, it's not so good for him. i know our guardian can be a bit too over concerned bout us, but it's good that there's someone there to watch over us. but my bro feels like as if she's too controlling. i dunno if it's a good thing that my parents left. it's prob cos that my sis and i are old enough to take care of ourselves and we are able to get our priorities right, that my bro feels that he too can take care of himself. i'm a bit worried for him.
i know he needs maths tuition, but i think it's cos he doesnt like the teacher that's why he doesnt want to go to the tuition teacher i went to during my sec school days. she's really good and stuff, if not for her i wldnt be able to get my As for both maths. my parents asked me to help my bro and tuition him. but i dun think i'm good enough. it's been already 2 years since i touched maths and i prob already forgot everything there is to integrated algebra and stuff. the easy ones i should be able to cope, but the difficult one is where the challenge comes in.
it would not be very good to ask my parents to come back half way when they are already in the mission field. i support them in going over and stuff. but now maybe the situation has changed a bit when it comes to my bro. he wants all the freedom, he wants to be able to play computer games till anytime he wants, but he just doesnt see that if we allow him to do that, he'll neglect his studies. although he says that he wont. if we allow him to play games whenever he likes, he will be sitting in front of the comp from the time he comes home from school till he goes to bed. his homework would be done in front of the comp and he wont be able to concentrate on studying. i hardly see him in the study room studying for any up coming tests. i'm really very worried and i'm prob not a good sister who would be able to encourage him to study.

spread my wings at[1:15 PM]

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Monday, July 18, 2005

longggg time

it's been weeks and everyone's been asking me to update my blog. really got nothing much to write bout though.

anyways, had a bbq with the pretty ladies at sanne's house last sat. really had fun (thanks for making it so special babes). It's been a long time since all 8 of us met up together. really brought back fond memories of MG life. i wonder how laoshi and miss goh and the other teachers are doing. haha. i wonder if our maths teacher is still being disliked by the students. haha. i remembered that a few of my classmates did some nasty things to her...haha. i'm being mean by laughing, but the pranks wernt that serious. so it didnt harm her or anything.

the one week break is nearby!!! cant wait. ken and i planning a chalet for the peeps. bbq and stuff. i need the sun....losing my tan! haha. dun wanna become white again.

anyways, got a few squash frens complaning bout how they feel like they lost all motivation in playing squash and stuff. thinking bout squash only makes me feel sad sometimes. cos i didnt get into the IVP as i thought i would. i'm prob not good enough. wanna train myself up good so i can get in next year. got to train my strokes. Gladys says that my backhand drive is a bit weird and i cant really do it properly. sighs.....

talked bout going running and stuff. didnt happen. growing fatter day by day. weaker day by day. thought that sam would be able to sign up for the california gym and she'll be able to bring me along then i can go use the stuff there to train myself up. but the registration costs is rather high, although the monthly fee of just $54 seems attractive.

I dun think everyone knew bout it, and i wanna appologise to those who were always by my side but i didnt say a word bout this till the very last min....(esp nisa)....but last week was a rough week. had something with ken....i guess i was just all me, but i just had this stupid thingy that i wanted to be single all over again. i guess i kinda miss singlehood where i'm kinda free to do whatever i wanna. we kinda had this little "breakup" for just 3 days (tuesday to friday). it was suppose to last like a month so that i can have my own free space. ken kinda told almost everyone he knew in sch bout the "breakup" so the feeling of being single would kick-in for me. everyone was rather shocked i must say....the funny thing was that most of them said, "but u guys together for so long already! what happened?" haha...i dun thing the period of being together should be a factor in breakups. 2 pple can be together for 10 years, but it all comes down to whether u can live with the person forever.

i'm not in a relationship for the fun. i find it meaningless to be with someone u know u wont marry and stuff like that. so i guess at my age, although it a bit too quick, i'm prob already thinking bout marriage. haha.

i glad that i've got friends all around me who are concerned bout my well being and stuff. and prob to watch out for me sometimes.

i kinda pity ken sometimes for being with me. i'm not an easy person to be with. it's going to be really mushy here!.....but i really felt his love for me during the "breakup" period. prob no one will ever be able to love me the way he does.

-thankew so much for the wonderful night on tuesday :)))

spread my wings at[11:15 PM]

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Monday, July 04, 2005

done

cant wait to get these few weeks over and done with. hate tests. having FA test tmw, got so much thingy to memorise. kinda slept thru the whole afternoon after i came home from school cos i took my drowsy medicine. still kinda tired. cant wait to play squash tmw. although i'm know i'm still not at my fittest. i wanna win at least 2 pple tmw. boost my morale. haha. no one like losing i'm sure.

i wanna change my blog skin. something fresh. it looked nice at first, but everything is becoming too dull. need a change in my life too.

Jon from Calvery Bap. called me yesterday. surprised. haha. din expect him to actually contact me. seems like his church is having some youth outreach kinda service this sat. anyone interested to go? it's from 7pm to 9pm on the 9th of july. i think it's going to be pretty cool. got testimonies and stuff like that. hope i'll get to see the twin bros (jon's older bros) too. haha. it's been quite a while since we talked. whenever i think about these boys, it just brings back memories of when their family invited mine over for christmas dinner. sam, jet and i kinda ate almost all the candy cane that were hanging on the tree. haha. and i remembered the boys climbed onto their roof to wave goodbye to us. those were the good old childhood days.

heard that ken got hit on the eye area by the soccer ball while playing with rob. got 3 cuts under his eye. hope he's ok.

dinner was good. but got to save some space for a little bit of munch later cos i'll need to take my medicine.

argh!!! suppose to go study now....but i dun have the mood to do anything. i even have hmwk to do............
i need more sleep.......

spread my wings at[8:35 PM]

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

ill

i got the virus again. i think my immune system is breaking down. this is the 2nd time i've been sick in the month of June.
had quite high fever when i woke up on friday. din go to school. and din go for squash. i hope mekko wont get angry at me and think i'm slacking or something. cos i was suppose to try complete all my trials by friday.
feel tired. dunno whether it's cos of the medicine or cos i've been sleeping too much. slept thru almost the whole day yesterday.

i've actually planned to go running in school from monday to sat to get fit again. run 2.4 for that 6 days a week. then sunday maybe go for a swim or something. but got not much motivation. ken was suppose to run with me too. but i guess cos he wasnt up for it last thursday so it kinda made me not wanna run too.
Marcus, if ken doesnt run with me u got to motivate me and push me to run k. so u got to run with me too!! then maybe get denise. then we all go gym after that. haha.

dunno why i've been feeling so down lately. i dun think it's the stress. maybe i've just got too much in my life to handle. i realised that i havent been that active in church. usually i'll be in the backup twice a week. but now they've got this system where the backup follows the worship leader, so i'm only invloved once a week. and i've not particularly that interested in teaching the kids. i've tried to tell uncle joseph many times. and i hope he finally gets the point that i wanna stop teaching the kids. i like kids and all, but i dun feel comfy teaching them stuff. guess i'm not much of a teacher.

got work to do.
toodles.

spread my wings at[2:35 PM]

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

i wish i could start my life all over again. to make everything perfect - the way i want it to be.

spread my wings at[3:06 PM]

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