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Monday, July 18, 2005

longggg time

it's been weeks and everyone's been asking me to update my blog. really got nothing much to write bout though.

anyways, had a bbq with the pretty ladies at sanne's house last sat. really had fun (thanks for making it so special babes). It's been a long time since all 8 of us met up together. really brought back fond memories of MG life. i wonder how laoshi and miss goh and the other teachers are doing. haha. i wonder if our maths teacher is still being disliked by the students. haha. i remembered that a few of my classmates did some nasty things to her...haha. i'm being mean by laughing, but the pranks wernt that serious. so it didnt harm her or anything.

the one week break is nearby!!! cant wait. ken and i planning a chalet for the peeps. bbq and stuff. i need the sun....losing my tan! haha. dun wanna become white again.

anyways, got a few squash frens complaning bout how they feel like they lost all motivation in playing squash and stuff. thinking bout squash only makes me feel sad sometimes. cos i didnt get into the IVP as i thought i would. i'm prob not good enough. wanna train myself up good so i can get in next year. got to train my strokes. Gladys says that my backhand drive is a bit weird and i cant really do it properly. sighs.....

talked bout going running and stuff. didnt happen. growing fatter day by day. weaker day by day. thought that sam would be able to sign up for the california gym and she'll be able to bring me along then i can go use the stuff there to train myself up. but the registration costs is rather high, although the monthly fee of just $54 seems attractive.

I dun think everyone knew bout it, and i wanna appologise to those who were always by my side but i didnt say a word bout this till the very last min....(esp nisa)....but last week was a rough week. had something with ken....i guess i was just all me, but i just had this stupid thingy that i wanted to be single all over again. i guess i kinda miss singlehood where i'm kinda free to do whatever i wanna. we kinda had this little "breakup" for just 3 days (tuesday to friday). it was suppose to last like a month so that i can have my own free space. ken kinda told almost everyone he knew in sch bout the "breakup" so the feeling of being single would kick-in for me. everyone was rather shocked i must say....the funny thing was that most of them said, "but u guys together for so long already! what happened?" haha...i dun thing the period of being together should be a factor in breakups. 2 pple can be together for 10 years, but it all comes down to whether u can live with the person forever.

i'm not in a relationship for the fun. i find it meaningless to be with someone u know u wont marry and stuff like that. so i guess at my age, although it a bit too quick, i'm prob already thinking bout marriage. haha.

i glad that i've got friends all around me who are concerned bout my well being and stuff. and prob to watch out for me sometimes.

i kinda pity ken sometimes for being with me. i'm not an easy person to be with. it's going to be really mushy here!.....but i really felt his love for me during the "breakup" period. prob no one will ever be able to love me the way he does.

-thankew so much for the wonderful night on tuesday :)))

spread my wings at[11:15 PM]

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