Thursday, May 31, 2007
this is the first time i've ever blogged three times in a day. haha. dun even think i've blogged twice in a day before. anyways, i'm just here to talk about how sexy orlando bloom looks when he's drenched from head to toe. everytime he kissed keira knightly i would imagine it was me. sighhss...haha
johnny depp and orlando bloom were the only 2 things that made the movie interesting. the whole time during the show i had no idea what was being said in their piratey conversations except for the obvious parts like the voting of elizabeth swan to become the king of pirates or something like that. and i think the whole movie had a big misconception about singapore. first of all, singapore wasnt called singapore like a thousand years ago when pirates existed, and singapore is not part of china. the people they used were obviously china looking people and the early days singapore were mostly populated with malays. they should have done their research before actually using singpore's name in such a big movie like that.
the ending was a bit upsetting cos it was obviously NOT a happy ending! how can anybody be happy with the fact that they are only allowed to see their other half once every 10 years??? if they produce a part 4 for pirates, i would expect it to be much much much better then part 2 and 3, and i would need a happy ending. i'm almost half dead now, need some shut eye. *yawn*
spread my wings at[11:14 PM]
got this michael buble song from yongqi yesterday. i originally wanted to buy the album when i get my pay, but i cannot wait so long just to get this song. haha. i love it. it's my fave song now. his voice is so dreamy... i'm in love :)))
enjoy!
spread my wings at[3:52 PM]
I"M FINALLY HOME!!! after spending 31 hours outside...it's seriously tiring, but it was FUN!
shall start with the day we had to be at work at 630am for stock take:
bought breakfast for ailian and simon from macs and ate breakfast at the canteen that always stinks. started work at about 645 cos simon was super late and as usual, ailian ate slowly. haha. sam and i were assigned to the colour room where we had to make sure the workers weighed the chemicals properly and recorded it correctly, and then sign on the paper to prove that we checked it. it was really stuffy inside and the smell of the leather didnt help one bit. after a while i felt like vomiting and was a little dizzy, so i had to lean against one of the containers to keep myself from swaying. the workers went for their break at 830 and sam and i went into the airconditioned production office to rest. came back out at 9 and started doing audits again but felt much better after the rest. duncan happened to be there doing something with the computer, didnt have much time to chat with him cos the workers were weighing the chemicals at the other end of the room, so had to follow them around. yvonne came around a few times to make sure everything was okay and i asked her about how to get a small piece of leather so that i could use it as a mouse pad. i saw the workers use those leather to wipe their hands clean so i thought i would probably be worthless. yvonne was so NICE! she helped me ask the production ppl and let me choose from about 6 different leather samples. sam took one too. she said that these samples were actually being sold as scrap but it didnt matter if we took a few. so nice right?? i just love her. haha.
the stock take lasted till 11 plus and ailian and simon ended their's much earlier. went back up to our office and ailian was already gone. haha. we all took half day leave cos it was a little tiring for us to continue working till, ailian left at 1030 so didnt get to say goodbye. mark came at about 12 plus to pick us up and he drove us to his house so that he could change into something nicer for dinner outing with sam at night, and i finally got to see how his farm looked like. i expected much more, but guess in singapore most farms look like that. haha. it's pretty cool though. and then when he was done he drove us back home.
reached home about 2 and took a short nap before meeting yongqi at dover MRT. finally going down to play squash!!! dan was there by the time we got down and he was playing a match with gladys. there was a competition organised by SMU that was going on in SP and some of my squash juniors and seniors signed up for it. i didnt know bout it so i didnt sign up for it, but even if i knew i probably wouldnt have the time and energy to go train everyday after work. got myself an empty court and played a match with yongqi. he won the first set and our scores were pretty close, but then during the second match he started to cough real badly so he had dan come in and play with me. haha. dan's crazy larrr!!! make me run like hell. haha. my thighs were aching by the end of the match and dan kept laughing at my face cos it was super red! haha. my face always turns red when i do sports, but he said that this time was redder then any of the other time i squashed. i think it was becos of the red bull i drank before the game. haha.
watched some of the matches that went on while i rested, and i was trying to hide my face at the same time. if not ppl would have came up to me and comment bout how red my face was. hurmph. dan went to play a game with one of the bruni guys. there were a bunch of them involved in the games, and they were apparently hired by singapore to be mercenaries. and they were all damn fit. hot bods, tan, hot bods....haha. dan's game ended about 930 and we were suppose to go eat the hokien mee near my home, and dan's been wanting to try for ages, but after cooling down and stuff it was already close to 10. so we decided to go chomps instead since dan had the car. the whole ride there was kinda scary cos yongqi wanted to try drive to chomps and dan had to sit beside him to guide him there, and during the whole trip dan was nagging at yq, or should i say passionately coaching. haha. he stalled the car twice in the middle of the high way, but there was a jam so luckily no cars were speeding behind us or i did be the first to die =S
odered the usual yummies at chomps and yq treated us. i think he had too much money left from his japan trip so he wanted to spend it all. haha. surprisingly i didnt cost alot. for 3 ppl to eat there and spend less then 40 is considered a miracle. haha. dan sent yq back home, and cos sam and jet were spending the night out and dan was too lazy to drive me all the way home from bishan and i also had to be at douby ghaut at 9 the next morning to meet the youths, i spent the night at his place. thought of going to ken's but didnt wanna bother him. we talked until about 2 and then decided to go sleep, but when the lights were off, we continued talking cos somehow we was not as tired as when the lights were still switched on. heh. i think i only fell asleep at 3 plus 4.
was suppose to get up at 730, but i lazed around and only went to wash up at 825. lol. was late, but i kinda knew that the rest would be late so i didnt rush myself. dan walked me to the bus stop at the back of his house and i took a bus to toapayoh and then a train down to douby ghaut. met up with the peeps and only headed for east coast at about 10. deb nic and me wanted to blade while the kids wanted to cycle. but cos the blades were renting for 10 bucks per 2 hours and the bikes were 5 bucks per 2 hours, we kinda went for the bikes in the end. my thighs were aching from squashing and i had to strain a little just to peddle across grass patches and up slope. we cycled to where the walk-for-bibles carnival was held and i kinda expected more excitment. i thought there would be tons of ppl, ballons flying everywhere and plenty of games, but it was quite a sad scene. haha. there were only 3 activity stations there and tug of war was one of them. we wanted to participate, but they were already in the middle of their competition so we went to sit at the beach instead. lydia, jessie and jun may were playing near the waters, and apparently they were playing "SIAM the wave!" haha. but then this weird wave came so smoothly and then all of a sudden jumped up into a bigger wave and soaked their shoes. haha. the 3 of them had to go barefooted cos it was disgusting to let their feet be squished into wet shoes. we had free lunch from the carnival and then went back to return our bikes. i lent lydia and jun may the slippers i was wearing and they took a side each, so they could hop around on one leg where the floor was burning hot. and i wore my squash shoes cos they were with me.
after the whole thing the other people took a bus to uncle joseph's house while i shared a cab back with that 3 girls cos they obviously couldnt take the bus with one slipper each. sent them to jessie's house so that they could wash up before heading down to uncle joseph's for the pirates marathon. i came home cos i need a nice hot shower and to get out of my smelly squash shirt and shorts. will be meeting them at jurong point later tonight to watch pirates 3.
back to work tmw! hmm, just found out that simon was "sacked" because there were too many temp staff and too little things to do. haha. sam and i covered most of ailian's duties so she also was slacking and doing her work extra slowly so she wouldnt have to go looking around for work that needs to be done, like what sam and i have been doing for the past week. but i think it'll get busier for me next week cos the perm staff that took over my duties have so much more to complete and it's already the month end closing. i really wonder how she'll survive next month when i would no longer be available to help her with her duties....
think i'll go take a short nap now. dun wanna fall asleep half way through pirates...
cheers :)
spread my wings at[2:22 PM]
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
had a fun day at work. lunch break was 2 hours long cos we went out to give serene a farwell lunch at the swensens at jurong point. was in the company car with ailian, jaq, jasmine, jessica [think she's jessica. i've bad memory], and yvonne drove. we got there last cos the carpark was almost full and it was hard finding a parking spot, and yvonne also had problems parking right cos the lot was a little squeezy. haha. they had a pirates menu for some promotion thingy, but the food didnt look that good. so i chose from the normal menu and i ordered a shirloin steak cos everytime i eat at swensens it'll always be fish bake rice. haha. and since the company was paying for the lunch i thought i did order somethign different for a change and whatever i wanted to. haha. a senior manager that works in china came back for a short trip and he joined us for the lunch. he had a reputation of being a flirt and most of the time during the lunch i was made fun of cos apparently, the guy kept doing things that made them link it to me. one incident when he was kinda like showing off his new camera and took it out wanting to take pictures or videos, and i was sitting on the left side of the table, then when he went one round the girls and the right side of the tables started joking that he shouldnt pretend to take everyone's picture and only really click the button when it was me in it. lame lor. felt so uncomfortable the whole time.
there was this waiter who looked like a small boy and he had such a manly name, Theodore. roar!!! haha. like some ancient greek name. haha. when he was clearing our table, he accidently spilled sauce at the back of the senior manager. he didnt get angry but joked with the waiter until the poor boy almost cried, he kept apologising. haha. in the end, the gave him the Pirates shirt that they all have to wear, so he became one of them for the day. haha.
by the time we got back to the office it was already 3pm. and it was a good thing too cos i didnt have much things to do. only until the end of the day that i got stuffs to complete, but i can only start on them tmw. i havent gotten my pay yet and apparently, the person incharged kinda mistook my sister as me and totally forgot bout me. so she paid my sister but not me. how nice.... but i'll most likely get the money by tmw. if i dun i'm going to scream at them. haha
thursday's going to be kinda fun, going to east coast in the morning and then watching pirates at night. finally get to watch it. ppl around me have been talking about it and i have to run away everytime they discuss the movie. haha. watching Miss Universe now. i think some of the ladies looks weird. and singapore's rep was prettier then come of the top 15... sam checked the webby and we already know that Japan would win. somehow the asians seem more popular this round. korea won the 2nd runner up, but i feel that korea looks better than japan, although they both look alike. haha.
tmw's stock take day and the temp staff, meaning ailian sam simon and me, got to be there at 630am... so early! but yvonne's got to be there at 6am, so poor thing. i think she's so nice that she gets bullied alot. she's the nicest boss ever, sadly i'm no longer under her. sighhs...better sleep early tonight :]
chaos
spread my wings at[9:35 PM]
Sunday, May 27, 2007
went for iHope yesterday at ACJC. the main speaker was Sy Rogers and he shared his testimony and life story with us. he had an interesting past and i think many people are still skeptical about whether he is actually really changed his ways because of his prominent mannerism and accent. but by God's grace, he's a new man and he started a family of his own 25 years ago and has a 21 year old daughter today. to all who are curious about his past, he was actually a homosexual and he had to live as a woman for 2 years before he was allowed to go through he sex change operation. and one day when he was meditating [those yoga kinda thingy] God spoke to him and he broke down and asked God to show him a sign. and 3 days later the center where he was going to have his operation shut down because the founder said that research showed that people who go through sex change do not lead a better life style and it doesnt help them emotionally. his life story is a little long for me to tell here, but apparently the whole world knew about him because people wrote about him in newspaper articles and stuff.
we had 3 sessions where we could choose from a list of topics to see which one was more relevant to us because of the different age groups. Sy Rogers was the speaker in 2 of the sessions i chose and i think he's a really good speaker. probably with all the experiences he went through he could advise us on what to do and how to react to situations. and it was only during the Q&A session that i learnt alot more. one girl wrote on a piece of paper for the Q&A that she is in an unhealthy relationship with her boyfriend and she knew that it was displeasing to God. but she didnt want to break up and loose her boyfriend just because she wanted to choose a healthier relationship instead. Sy Rogers said something that impacted me, he said that God doesnt force us to leave someone or do something just because he knows what's best for us. instead he gives us a choice to choose the path we want to lead and of cos he'll be pleased if we choose to honor Him.
i guess i made that decision a long time ago and i chose the path that i felt would honor God. but until yesterday i realised that part of me still clinged on very tightly to what didnt belong to me anymore and it was holding me back instead of pushing me forward to a promising future. and after yesterday i've decided that if i wanna truely give my life to God i would have to surrender my past to him and lead a whole new life. it's definately going to be a hard journey but i know i can do it. life's never easy and doesnt always go your way. but by fully trusting in God i know i wouldnt have to worry about what tmw might bring because i'm sure that he'll take me through it all.
went out for lunch with nic deb sam jet at mayim to celebrate jet's birthday which is on the 30th of may. kinda ordered alot and was really full at the end, but i still had space for my desert, MANGO PUDDING! twas really good! yall should go try it one day. i could have eaten another bowl of it but it's a little too expensive, 3 buckeroos! sam paid for the bill and treated all of us cos she got her pay already. i wonder what happened to my pay cos i havent gotten mine yet, and ailian and sam got theirs already...hmmm....
went home to rest a little. was suppose to go squashing with dan and shaomin, but i was too tired and lazy to leave the house. if it was swimming i would have gone cos the weather was terribly HOT! my house felt like a greenhouse when i came home cos all the window were closed and the heat was trapped inside. sharon talked me into going for the Global Day of Prayer at the national stadium. they were just going for the youth worship at 6 and then leaving after at 7, so i thought as long as i could come home early to rest i wouldnt mind going. the only youth who went were sharon jessie and me. and the worship was surprisingly short. ended at 630. so we went out for dinner in town. Jessie wanted to get the Casting Crowns cd so we went to trumpet praise at PS. went to subway for dinner and after that walked all the way to far east so that jessie could try the heavenly FRIED MARS BAR!!! haha. if you havent tried it yet, i strongly encourage you to. it's super yummy :)))
walked around far east and went window shopping. saw a bangle at ice lemon tea and i thought it was pretty, but i didnt know if it matched any of my clothes, and i would also have to wear it up at my arm and all my fats would be squished out around it. so ugly. haha. so decided not to get it in the end. walking around make me wanna go shopping at bugis street once i get my pay. there's so many things i wanna get!! i've been saying this ever since who-knows-when because i really need new clothes. been wearing the same things over and over again. i'm also looking for long pretty skirts. long skirts has always been my thing, just that it's hard to find one that i really like. if yall know me well enough, you'll know that i dun like to wear short skirts and i'm mostly in jeans. during poly days i could wear jeans the whole week. probably the same pair cos i only have 2 pairs of jeans. haha. only lately i've been giving my denim skirts a chance to get out of the closet, but i still hardly wear them and only if both my jeans are in the wash then i would have no choice but to wear them.
i hope i'll get my pay by tuesday. but tmw, i'll have to go all the way down to seragoon broadway to return my graduation gown and get back my 50 bucks. then tuesday would be squashing day with dan and whoever is going to be there. i've become a little rusty. been a long while since i squashed. have my week well planned out.
oh ya, there's a tail-less baby lizard running around the walls near my babies - kenny and hammy. it's disgusting. i wonder where the tail went to. have a feeling it's somewhere near the computer table because a few weeks ago jet was trying to catch it but it ran inbetween the cracks of the cupboard. aarrggghh! so gross...
spread my wings at[10:54 PM]
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
skipped work today to go for my graduation. forced ken to come see me graduate and he ended up dragging hazel along. haha. sam and mark were suppose to come to but in the end they couldnt make it. was a little late cos i was fussing over my hair, didnt know if i should tie it up or let it down, to leave my fringe down or pin it up. in the end i pinned my fringe up and tied my hair into a pony tail. took a cab down to SP. the usher at the door kinda made me confused, i could have gotten angry at her...
usher: hi. are u graduating?
me: ya.
usher: ok please proceed inside and put on your gown
me: *walk in further*
usher: please put on your gown now
me: *look at her* now?
a lecturer: there are mirrors inside for you to see yourself
and i just walked in. thinking about it, i should have been pissed off at that usher. she expected me to wear the gown right in front her like saying that if i dun put it on at the main door i wont be able to go in at all.
went into the seating area and almost everyone were seated already. found my seat beside azree and i was feeling a little nervous about going on stage with everyone looking at me. but in the end it was over within seconds. i cant even recall what happened on stage. like as if i was hypnotised or something. haha.
after the whole ceremony the fun begins! taking pictures...!! went around finding familiar faces and at the same time trying to gather all my classmates to take a class photo. managed to take one class picture and caleb was in it to. haha. i took a picture with caleb too and he was like complaining about how many pictures he had to take. haha. ken was amazed at caleb's height. he has always known that i had a 1.9m tall lecturer, but only knew how tall 1.9m really is when he saw him in person. haha. here's a pic to show you how tall.
nisa left and ken and i went to the squash court. wanted to go visit the squash kids, but only a few of them were there. dan said he'll be there at 5 but wasnt! bluff me. haha. anyways, he missed out the chance of getting back all the money i still owe him from a long time ago. haha. jy passed me a cheque of 200 bucks that i previously paid in advance for the thailand trip. so happy! finally got money. haha. have been broke for way too long. i'll also be able to get back my 50 bucks deposit from the stupid gown we had to rent for the graduation.
went to sakae sushi at westmall and treated ken to dinner to celebrate me graduating. haha. actually, i've already in my mind accepted that i've graduated ever since i completed my last paper so i didnt really feel anything when i got my cert. but the dinner was just an excuse to go out. haha. came home feeling so tired, and tmw's back to work. made a new friend at work recently, his name is duncan. 24 this year. he's the IT guy i keep disturbing because the computers in the company are all so old and giving me so much problems, probably time to change to new models. he so quiet during office time but so chatty online. haha. will maybe try to get duncan to lunch with us tmw then can gossip about other people. haha.
cheeerrrss!
spread my wings at[8:11 PM]
Sunday, May 20, 2007
my comp's been so laggy these few days. cant stand it! i dunno if it's because i've too many things stored in the comp or if it's sam who had downloaded lots of internet tool bars that makes it so slow. keep asking jet to help me make it not so laggy but he's like too busy with his own stuff.
woke up late cos i slept at 12am last night and i had to rush out of the house after getting ready within 10 mins, but i was still a little late for church in the end. Pastor Timothy Phua was the speaker today and he's one of the well known speakers cos he's so funny and always have a million jokes to tell. we learnt about GRACE today and it really made me think about how bad i was at showing grace to other people. I guess for us christians, the motivation for us showing grace to others is because we know of the unconditional grace and love that God has shown to us, people who do not deserve it at all. during sunday school we discussed what we learnt in the sermon, and evelyn said something that really struck me hard. grace is something we do for others that casues inconvenience to ourselves. it is simple things like being nice to someone who is probably the most irritating person on earth, making friends with the outcast in your class even if it means that you would risk being an outcast yourself, or even giving up the seat for an elderly or pregnent woman no matter how tired you are after a long day of shopping. turthfully, i'm guilty of not doing all that i mentioned above. and only just yesterday while on my way home from rob's party, i was so tired and although i knew that there was a pregnent woman in front of me, i just sat there, i did have thoughts of giving up my seat, but my legs refused to budge.
was talkint to hazel yesterday about how i was rejected by NTU and she told me that i could appeal to get in, keep appealing and make them irritated. haha. that's what i did. i prayed really hard that God would allow me to get in even with the shitty results i have. I know that i wouldnt be able to survive studying part time and working full time because i would then have to sacrifice alot of things like squash, friends, church and maybe even spending time at home with jet and sam. although studying part time and working full time would be a great advantage to me in the future, cos i'll be considered more valuable in the market then the graduates in 3 years time with all my working experiences, but i'm not ready to give up so many things. i'm still young and i still want to travel around the world and plan holidays with my friends.
i'm really using this time i have now to renew my relationship with God. although i may not be mature as a person, i'm striving hard to become a mature christian. almost 20 years of my life have past and i havent done anything significant for God. i see what my parents are doing now and the sacrifice they make to obey God, and i wonder if God wants me to take the same path. I have a burden for orphans every since i was young and i have a great passion to work with children but never put this passion to use even when i was given a chance to teach the sunday school kids.
it's really tough not knowing what my future would be like and i dont like the feeling of living day to day not knowing where i would be in a year's time. in poly it didnt bother me because i know i would still be in poly year after year if i passed all my modules, and it still didnt bother me in year 3 cos i thought i would go to university. but after getting really lousy results and being rejected from ntu, and having to decide whether i should work or study within such a short period of time, makes me all stressed up.
i'll be really busy this coming friday, saturday and sunday. i've decided to not go for squash on friday, although i havent been going for such a long time and it kills me to hear that marcus went last friday, but i'll go for the church prayer meeting instead. and on saturday, it'll be a whole day of I-Hope, from 9am to night at ACJC. it's a youth thingy of many classes with different topics to choose from, probably speaking to youth who wants to know how to stay firm in this new age society where everyone may be leading you the wrong way, away from God. and then on sunday, i'll be going for the Global Day of prayer. it is a yearly event and i didnt go the previous year. i think it's so cool that every christian all around the world gather together on the same day and pray for the world. and God said that his presence will be there when 2 or more pray, imagine the whole church praying at the same time....wow!
making drastic changes to my personal life right now, but i'll definately be the same ol' me. as fun as ever! lol. if you actaully even see me as a fun friend in the first place. i know i can be quite boring at times. haha. lots of tv shows to keep me entertained tonight: ugly betty, next top model and pepper denise. and then it's another week of work. OH OH! graduation this coming tuesday!!! yay!!! hope i dun get stage fright or trip on stage when shaking hands with the big-shot. haha.
tooooddlesss!
spread my wings at[1:50 PM]
Saturday, May 19, 2007
woke up at 930 to try pack up the house a little before the cleaner comes to clean up the entire house. she was suppose to come at 10 but still didnt show up at 1030, so i try calling her on her mobile but she didnt answer the call. in the end i had to do the cleaning myself. sam went out at 10 plus to bring the tabby cat to this place where people pay to put their animals at if they want a pet but dun want to take care of it at home. i cannot imagine that there are people in this world that would want to have a pet but only visit it whenever they like. it's like trying to do away with responsibility. sam said that tabby was very scared and hid in one corner cos there were so many other cats roaming aorund. the girl that was initially interested in adopting tabby suddenly changed her mind, and we couldnt accomodate 2 cats in the house because azaliah will get jealous and whenever she's angry she'll scratch us. because we have to keep tabby away from azaliah, she had to be locked in jet's room and she always makes a big mess in there. she rips everything in sight and the floor is always covered with shredded paper and cardboard. the room stinks so badly that i can smell it everytime i walk past. it was heartbreaking that tabby had to be put in that animal home, but we really have no choice.
mark's puppy was sick and they sent it to the vet earlier. i wanted to see how the puppy looked like and so i decided to tag along with mark and sam to go pick him up. there were about 5 dogs waiting in line for a check up and they were all so cute! mark's puppy was cute too. makes me wanna have one of my own in the future. that is if i can afford to have one. haha
they dropped me off at clementi so i could take a train down to PS to go for rob's 21st party. i was being stalked on my way there. there was this guy waiting for the train too at clementi and he kept looking at me. i mean everyone was looking at me today, girls, women, men...i think it was cos i was in a very pretty dress. haha. anyways, i could feel that he looked over at me a few times during the journey on the train, and when i got to raffles place, it was obvious that he wasnt getting off the train because he moved backwards when the crowd came in, but he only pushed his way through the crowd when he saw me getting off at raffles. then he stood not too far away from me while waiting for the next train to douby ghaut. the train that came was pretty empty so he stood nearby again, but when the crowd came in from cityhall, i purposely stood further away and was blocked by this really big guy, so i was hoping that the stalker wouldnt see me getting off at douby ghaut and follow me futher. so when i got off i quickly walk away, but as i was going up the escalator i saw him at the bottom. actually i wasnt scared of him, i just didnt like being stalked. haha. he wasnt some chikopek, he was actually quite good looking and probably aorund my age. but all i wanted to do was to shake him off, and i did! :]
called ken to find out where they were and headed down to the OP cafe at PS. i was late by the time i got there and rob, clara (rob's gf), ken, bryan, yihao and cheryl were already there. i was starving by that time cos i didnt eat anything since i woke up. didnt wanna eat a meal when everyone was just having desert, so i had a blueberry cheesecake and tea. yummy :]
being with them again made me remember how much i enjoyed the times when the bunch of us would hang out together, until ken thought that it would make him feel more at ease if his girlfriend didnt tag along at all. i had a great time chatting with all of them and shared 2 new lame jokes that i learnt from some friends recently. haha. clara was my age while the rest were one year older, so they were all so excited when they talked about the money they got for the GST credit thingy. only rob, clara and me didnt get the money, cos rob's a malaysian and clara and i were not 21 yet. talked to clara for a short while when the rest went to choose their cakes and found out that she is studying business admin in smu and she also knows some MG girls from my year. she was really nice to talk to and friendly, guess that's why rob likes her. they couldnt keep their hands off each other most of the time. haha.
zhen zhen and hazel came at about 4 plus. and we had more interesting things to chat and laugh about and had fun taking pictures...lots of pictures!!! only cheryl and zhen had cameras and the guys went crazy taking lots weird pictures with the surf boards used as decorations in the cafe. hazel clara and i just sat there chatting about uni life and exchange programmes while zhen zhen and cheryl became the camera women for those camera crazy guys. haha. at bout 7 we all left the cafe and rob paid for the bill. felt kinda bad cos it's his birthday and it should be us treating him. but he wouldnt have taken the money from us anyways. ken left for some other birthday party, yihao went back to SP for his lifesavers bbq gathering, zhen and hazel lwft for somewhere else, cheryl and bryan went out for dinner, rob sent clara home, and i went home too. i havent bought rob his gift yet cos i'm currently broke, told him that once i get my pay i'll buy him dinner and get his gift. heh. he was nice enough to let me off not feeling guilty. when i get my pay the first thing i'll do is go SHOPPING!!! going to drag esther all over bugis street and buy a bag, pair of black heels, pair of black jeans, more tops, rob's present, and last but not least, fix my phone. dropped my phone not long ago and now it's cranky, think i should get a better protective case for my beloved phone before i drop it again till it's beyond repair and i'll lose all my precious data in it.
the next gathering would be ken's 21st birthday in june. haha. it's actually a busy year for ken cos most of his friends are turning 21 this year and it's one of THE birthdays to invite all your friends to a party and get as many big presents as possible. haha. it'll be my turn next year! but i wanna stay 19 forever! one more year added to my life means one year nearer to death. haha. anyways, i'm enjoying my life now. had cell last night and it was FUN! talked about going for a pirates marathon, going for a trip to the durian farm in JB and have an "all you can eat" durian party for us durian lovers. and i'm also planning with sam a week holiday to go to cambodia in july with mark and then go to bangkok for a shopping trip before coming back to singapore. i'll also be away on the 19th to 22nd of june, will be going to JB with ben, nic and deb for some christian youth conference thingy to find God's will and know what He has already planned for our future.
nick's coming back on the 19th of june! yay!! more food outings! he's planning to go cycling at ECP, but i might wanna rollerblade instead. test out my stamina after so many years of not rollerblading. WAKEBOARDING, here i come again!!
spread my wings at[8:24 PM]
Thursday, May 17, 2007
i just realised how much i love numbers. i can look at them the whole day trying to reconcile something and not get tired of constantly calculating and squeezing out all my brain juice just to try solve it. haha. but i must say, one of the qualities for being an accountant is to be merticulous, but i've made too many unforgivable mistakes and my supervisor's probably a little mad at me.
was talking to my collegues this afternoon after lunch about working at the company and i found out how little the permanent staff there were paid and we were made to work such long hours with no overtime pay for staff paid $1600 and above. i thought about the acca scholarship that i applied for and i knew that if i'm awarded the scholarship i would have to find another job with shorter working hours and somewhere nearer to where my classes would be. if i dont get the scholarship then i would probably either stay in the company till end of this year and start school at SIM in january08 or stay till june08 and start SIM in july08.
hmm...thinking about it now. evelyn actually encouraged me to take up this CPA Austraila course that's as good as or maybe even better then ACCA. but it would require me to work for 3 years, something like internship, it's called the mentor program. i would also have to attend night classes i think. i'm not to sure about what the requirements are for getting into the course, will talk to evelyn bout it again.
i think the only think that draws me to working life is that i can earn much more pocket money for myself. haha. and it working doesnt require me to study for exams or memorize so many unnecessary things that could be easily refered to when needed, like stupid long formulae used in CF lessons.
anyways, there's this person at work that i kinda get irritated at all the time. i think it's just me cos ailian doesnt get as upset as me about what that person does. maybe i'm just a little too sensitive. but even just looking at that person makes me sick in the tummy. ken knows about it and asked me to tell that person off, but it's easier said then done. i'll have to face that person 5 days a week and it'll be so awkward if i told him off.
watching the 9pm show on channel 8 now. every couple should watch that show, lets you how the other gender thinks. it's a good show for men, cos most girls like to complain about how their boyfriends should attend classes on "how to understand women". haha. and i was one of them.
going for cell at uncle clarence's house tmw, and then out to celebrate rob's 21st on saturday.
toodlelooooo
spread my wings at[8:08 PM]
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
i couldnt stop thinking about what i found out from his blog yesterday. everytime i thought about it, i would feel my heart pierced. i guess he didnt tell me about his blog was cos he didnt want me to know all of those things about him and that girl. he thinks i'm upset about the breakup, which i'm not really that upset about, it's him lying to me that he didnt like her when i asked before. and it hurts me so bad that i was so easily forgotten, that he was able to push me out of his heart so fast and make room for some other girl.
i kept asking myself if i really such a bad girlfriend, that during this 2 and a half years together was actually 2 and a half years of hell for him. was my silence in invisibility his peace and solitude? was every moment spent around me irritating to him? was i such a bore to be with that just right after we broke up, he immediately found happiness and his heart yearning for another girl which he has never met before. i read the words he said to her like "i look forward to your smses"...when i thought about it, he has never said things like these to me. was i such an easy catch that i wasnt worth being wooed and being told mushy stuffs? in his blog he wrote about how sad he'll get if she doesnt reply his smses, but if it were me, i think he wouldnt even be bothered, or rather prefered if i didnt contact him at all. i guess i found little things to quarel with him all the time because i wanna know that he still cares for me. i just didnt know that it'll cause the opposite effect, and cause him to dislike me.
maybe from the very start he didnt like me, but more of settled with me cos there was no other girl who would have accepted him. up to the very end, he made himself think that what he feels towards me is love. almost all of his friends knows him better than i do cos he tells them everything, and i recently realised that he prefered to confide in his female friends than in me, he tells them everything and keeps secrets for them. but when he's with me he always doesnt have anything to say. we'll just listen to music on the train or bus, watch a show at his home, and the only time we exchange words would probably be meaningless talk forced out just to break the silence.
my first real relationship, and it makes you wanna jump off the building.
was i really such a bitch?
spread my wings at[6:53 PM]
Monday, May 14, 2007
i just read his blog and i really dunno what to feel right now. half of me wanna cry. half of me wanna feel like everything's okay cos i really have no right to feel anything. ever since 1st of april, i've kept every feeling inside of me. i really dunno who to talk to or who to cry to or who to get a comforting hug from. sam never seem interested when i'm telling her about my problems and she never gives me the answers that i'm looking for. she's most of the time out with mark and when she's home it'll be late and we'll just watch tv or sleep. i cant tell esther everything because i dun wanna cry in front of her. (esther, i know you're reading this...i just want you to know that i really appreciated the times you were there although i didnt tell u how i felt and i just put on a brave front. i thank you for praying for me everyday and giving me the assurance that something better is coming my way.)
work sucked today. i think God was trying to teach me a lesson for asking him to show me his will and yet because i got to comfortable in where i was, i neglected his word and turned to my own feelings. This new perm staff came and took over my job and my table today. i was then told that i had to move to the smelly stuffy meeting room filled with files and sit there all alone while the rest have each other's company in the finance department. in desperation, i went and told my boss that i wanted to become a perm staff, thinking that she would give me back whatever i had been doing all these while, but fat hope. i was still kicked out of my table and was made to teach her everything i've learnt the past 3 weeks.
she went to tell the finance manager about my decision and he brought me into the smelly meeting room and talked to me about converting to perm. he asked me what my plans were and made sure i considered carefully cos i think to him getting a degree should be the top on my list now.
but i have no movtivation to do anything now. after what i've been reading for the past hour and feeling my heart literally pierced everytime it turned hot and cold, hot and cold at every line i read....i really wonder if my past was a reality or a bad happy two and a half years dream that fogs my mind every second, even in my dreams.
spread my wings at[8:42 PM]
Saturday, May 05, 2007
after labour day, i really became a labourer. had datelines to meet cos it's closing accounts week and i had to do many things cos i only took over the girl who left two weeks later and there was alot of work left undone for me to complete. my boss asked me to do OT that very day and although i wasnt expecting it, i had to stay. stayed till 930 with two other perm staff. and on thursday i stayed again, until 830. and friday until 9. and went back to work today, a saturday, from 9am to 7pm. i'm becoming a workerholic. haha. but i kinda enjoy what i do. and i like the company of my collegues. my boss is so nice. she has a son my age and a daughter two years younger. she doesnt scold me if i make mistakes. so nice right. haha.
i'm considering of staying on a more permanent basis. that is if i cant get into uni. and maybe if i do get the ACCA scholarship i'll work full time and study part time. if i like the job that much and i dont get the ACCA scholarship, then i'll study part time in SIM. too bad the company doesnt offer any support to staff who wants to further their studies. so if i wanna study i got to pay it myself.
i got sam a temp job there too. doing accounts too cos the company is so in need of accounts. seeing the way i did OT 4 days in a row will give you a rough idea of how much work we have. haha. hope she'll be able to survive. she just finished her exams and got 3 month holiday before she'll be flying over to virginia for 6 months. i'm going to be so lonely. no more ken. no more sam. esther's so busy with work. haha. ohwells...
spread my wings at[9:54 PM]
sabby
12nov1987
future accountant
Loves:
(1)JESUS
(2)hanging out with me ladies!
(3)squashing
(4)rollerblading
(5)shopping
(6)going on holidays
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Gravity *by John Mayer
Wishlist
*get a driving license
*save enough money for my holiday to melby next june
*get a good digi-cam
*a small but big enough pretty handbag
*stay 19 forever
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a pRinCesS's sToRy
Those who wait upon the Lord
shall renew their strength.
As you travel life's weary road,
let JESUS lift your heavy load.