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Saturday, June 02, 2007

sabby loves her late night suppers!

just came back from a late night supper of prata and teh halia. was feeling so tired the whole day. fell alseep at my desk before work started and was only woken up by yvonne at 9. oops. had so much to do today and she wanted me to OT. i begged my way out of it and she let me go, but with the condition i OT on monday if i couldnt finish posting all the documents for month end closing. but i dun mind OT. i love OT. haha. more money, and it's better then being home with nothing to do but face the computer or tv. ailian, sam and i went to the meeting room to take a nap and chit chat during our lunch break, after lunch of cos. it was a nice place to sleep cos we could switch off the lights, but the chairs were a little too uncomfortable. we went back to work at 1345 when we were suppose to be at our desks at 1330. haha. nobody bothers as long as we do our job well and efficiently. haha.

mark came to pick sam up for dinner after work. ailian took the bus to bedok and i took the bus to clementi. duncan came up the same bus as me and we talked the whole way. although i had to come up with random stuff to keep the conversation going. haha. it was really so random that i think he got a shock when the topic changed from one to another without any link. haha. he was suppose to alight at the chinese garden stop, but he decided to accompany me all the way to clementi so he could take a train to town. it was nearer for him too anyways...

i was the first to reach uncle clarence's house and only found out that uncle clarence was away on his personal holiday to go diving, aunty geak hong was at some dinner function and jessie was at camp. haha. wanted to sleep for a while but amazingly i wasnt tired when i got there. so i watched the channel u show while waiting for the rest to come. kahhwee nic deb evelyn and sharon came not long after and we had dinner at 8 after the show ended. uncle clarence's maid cooked dinner for us, roasted chicken wings, baked potatoes, and salad. yumms...haha.

nigel came when we were all done with our dinner and he ate the left overs. started bible study at bout 9 plus and deb was leading. there was no guitarist so we had to sing a cappella. haha. cell ended at 10 plus 11 and we went for supper cos it was a long time since we went for a prata "party". haha. we were talking about stuff and one topic was on how some of the couples kahhwee knew who broke up after going for pre-marriage counselling because they realised how different their values and stuff were. i think people now adays fail to realise the significance of marriage or even what love or passion is about. love is not forever, but it takes time and alot of effort to make things work. it's like during courtship when both sides do their very best to make each other happy, but then they stop after marriage becos they feel like they already got what they wanted.

these few days i've been feeling so tired. i dunno if it's physically or mentally or both. but when i get the chance to sit down and rest for a while i always think about how good it would be if i had someone that i could lean my head against and hold me so i can forget about the world cos i know that he or she is there to protect me. i really miss my daddy and mommy. on mother's day during youth group, each of us had to say one thing about mothers. when it came to my turn, i just broke down and cried half way while talking. i guess the people there understood why i cried. when you have your mom always by your side and when you have to face her everyday, you just take her for granted, shout at her when you are not in the best of moods, and if she starts to nag at you, you just wished you were somewhere else instead of being home. i really miss the homely feeling i use to get when i could come home knowing that there'll be someone in the house wanting to know how your day has been. that i could give my daddy a hug and my mommy a kiss before i go to bed. lots of people think that without parents around, the 3 of us became wild and did whatever we liked. but i guess it's the same for jet and sam, that we didnt like coming home to an empty house. i would rather stay out all night then to come home and lie in bed knowing that there's no one else at home but me.

i definately would like to have someone that will always there for me, like what sam has, but i'm not ready to go through another relationship just so i can have a nice warm hug whenever i need one. some people pick themselves up quickly when they fall. some prefer to lie on the ground for a little while before they decide it's time to get up. i guess for me, i'm sitting up. i've left my past as it is and know that i wouldnt wanna relive it again, but i just wanna rest before i stand up and start moving forward again. i'm learning to occupy myself in little ways, so maybe that's why i enjoy working. evelyn said that i'm at the best age to go out to meet people and make new friends, but then where do i start? my work place has not many people my age and most of them there are aunties, uncles, indian workers or china workers...haha. i just wanna find people i can travel with, but so far my friends are all kinda busy, cant step out of singapore without their parents, or have no money to travel. i really envy sam cos she has been on so many holidays with her friends, US Genting Vietnam Austraila and still counting...

when will my life take me on an interesting journey?

spread my wings at[12:32 AM]

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