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Tuesday, October 21, 2008

weekend, fantastic.

I had a fantastic weekend.

Birthday flowers were sent to Esther’s work place on Friday and apparently, someone out did us with an even bigger bouquet of sunflowers. I ordered the flowers online so I did not see the real bouquet and how it really looked like. It was supposed to be a horoscope flowers so the promotion was that they would send a horoscope bear along with it. The flowers I chose were not Esther’s horoscope and the Far East call center lady told me that they would replace the bear with more flowers, but they sent the bear in the end. Would have asked Ken to call in and complain but what’s done has already been done…

Sat was kinda fun although the morning wasn't as fun as it should be. Ken and I were supposed to go KBox but I guess I was PMSing or something and when we were having breakfast at Starbucks, I got angry for nothing and started behaving strangely, according to Ken. Haha. So in the end we missed KBox and went shopping. I bought a pretty checkered dress from Topshop for Christmas and Ken bought 2 very unique shirts from Skin Couture. I really didn't expect the shirt to be his style, but he looked nice in them (:

Jermin had a BBQ birthday party celebration on sat at downtown east. Ken and I met up with Saadiah in orchard to get Jerm’s present and after that we made our way to Pasir Ris. Downtown east really changed a lot, there’s a big children’s play area with ice-skating and those pits filled with balls that kids find it interesting somehow. There’s a Cathay theater and a KBox on the upper floors, and a NTUC on the first floor. Ah! There was also an indoor Ferris wheel which was really small and considered a waste of money to me. Haha. Nisa came a little later after we had toured the new area. The whole chalet was packed with people and every BBQ pit from the entrance to the last chalet was used. So you can imagine how smoky it was inside and made it hard to breathe. Jerm’s chalet was the last block “L” and we kept walking and walking and walking.

KC and his girlfriend came about half an hour after we reached, and Jun Jie came too. I was fun meeting up with them again. Saadiah and I were talking about studying together again cos the 3 of us, saad, nis and I, are doing part time studies. And we really missed the times when we went to woodlands library to study for our final year poly exams. It was great to see Jermin again and in that group of friends, I’m the last to turn 21. hehe.

Sunday was Esther’s turn. Mark hosted a surprise birthday party for her at his place. It was funny cos when I got there, there was a note that said “Do not ring the doorbell, Just come right in”, and the atmosphere inside was so quiet that it made me feel tense. Well, Veron did not explain how the surprise was going to work and I thought that Mark was out with Esther and he was going to bring her back to his place and then “SURPRISE!”. But then after a while Ken said that it didn't feel right cos everyone was whispering when they talked to each other so I asked Veron about it. Guess what, Esther was actually upstairs in Mark’s room and she had no idea that we were all just below her. I thought it was a smart idea (: the food was great, the host was great, and the birthday girl was great.

spread my wings at[9:27 PM]

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Wednesday, October 08, 2008

08.10.08

Life is so fragile. God gave us life and he can take it away anytime he wants. Not in the evil sense of course.

One of my colleagues’ wife just passed away 2 days ago, she was only in her early 30s. A bunch of us from work went to attend the wake yesterday afternoon, it was held in JB cos this colleague of mine is a Malaysian. It was a Christian wake so the ambience was serene, although my colleague did cry at one point when he was talking about how his wife would be happy that the people at work were concerned about him.

She left behind a son for him, and his son is only 13 months old. Since Monday afternoon, when he heard the news of the death of his wife, he was calm and composed and could still delegate his work properly because of his absence in the next few days to get things done at home. I really admire his ability to meet people and put a smile on his face.

I wondered to myself that if the same thing were to happen to me, I would probably lock myself up in the room and won’t stop crying, at the same time probably ask God to let me leave this world too. Being too attached to something or someone on earth is not a good thing cos almost everything in this world is perishable. I do cling on to Ken too much that if I have a problem and he’s not there to help me I would just panic.

Some people can just live their lives for the “now”, because they never thought of death and what they would have accomplished in their lifetime. For us Christians, we can measure ourselves by God’s standards and how we have used our life meaningfully according to his plans. At least for me that’s how I feel. Some people can say that Christians are too extreme and everything in their lives is God, God and God. I don't think it is done purposely to make people perceive us as “holy”, but because we do really find fulfillment in doing something for a mighty being who loves us like a father, takes cares of us subtly, even though we cannot touch him or see him.

I am not a Christian just because my parents are. Although at some points in my life I may have leaned too much towards to the world and away from God, I truly believe because God has shown himself to me in his ways, he gave me strength and filled my heart with warmth at times when I needed him. He was always there protecting me from harm every step of my life. He gave the people around me the prompting and the wisdom to share with me their experiences that is so similar to what I was going through at that point in my life even though I did not tell anyone, and it pulls me back to God many times, and I was always so glad.

“Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life.”” – this verse was printed on a banner and hung up at the wake. How many Christians out there really believe in this that they would have the passion to reach out to as many unsaved people out there? This is a challenge to all, even for me.

spread my wings at[12:54 PM]

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